/ Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Time for some updates.Exams are almost over.
Very happy about it.
But also feel a little sad, because that means we might not be able to keep in contact with our classmates.
They are really a bunch of very happening people.
Within this time [the time which i didnt blog], alot of things happened.
Good and bad things.
Happy things and sad things.
Baby bought me a pretty necklace and i bought him a pretty watch.
We spend nights together sometimes.
We studied alot outside at coffee bean and starbucks.
Its decemeber now, everything is turning cold.
Everything is going cold.
And im affected by it.
It makes me shiver, makes me shake.
Maybe its making me tired.
I saw this girl crying in the dark.
Sobbing weeping at a corner turn way.
Hair covering her face, body arching, shoulders quivering.
It reminded me of myself some years back.
Except that i was on a bus, a long bus ride home.
Didnt give any shit about anyone on the bus.
Just letting myself go, crying.
Of course it was over a failed relationship.
After seeing that and being reminded.
I suddenly feel that im okay.
I've been through worst, why am i affected by tiny little things that happened now when i always wave them off as minor in the past?
Have i changed?
Or have i learnt?
I feel that its true that if you love someone, you will be very sensitive to their words, their action, everything.
I dont wanna be labeled as petty or having too much going on in my mind.
So i dont show it.
I keep it to myself.
Sob in my heart.
Because im being very blunt and honest here in this blog with myself.
Im hurt, and i dont feel you anymore.